In this article, I will share my experiences of light and bliss. Below I quote verbatim, my experience as I extracted from my journal, save for some editorial spelling and grammar corrections. These experiences gave me a glimpse into my true expansive self. Mind you that these experiences (including the previously discussed experience “Is This Kundalini?”) occured about three (3) years ago. My consciousness is more expansive now than it was then. At the end of the article, I also give an interpretation to these experiences under my present realizations of who I am.
October 2004 — Friday — 10/22/2004 — Issaquah — Spiritual Journal Entry
Amazing thing happened last night (Thursday, October 21, 2004). Every night my son insists that I put him to bed. So, I put him to bed around 9:30 pm and as usual I went off to sleep. I woke up around 12:20 am and could not go back to sleep. So, I got up and went to the computer to surf the net and do some work on my PDA. I felt a bit tired around 2:30 am and I came back to bed.
I lied down in bed still unable to go to sleep, but tired. I started thinking about pranic healing course that I am going to take on November 6th and 7th and how I wanted to become an energy healer. I started visualizing how I was helping people out of difficult ailments, how I was working only 20-25 hours a week and making enough money take care of my family, and how I was spending the rest of my time in writing about what matters, in life and spiritual matters and helping people. As I thought about these with closed eyes, I started to see these colored geometric patterns. They were not flat 2D, but deeply 3D multicolored. I don’t know, whether I went off to sleep or still visualizing at this point—I could’t say. Suddenly, I found myself in a field with lot of greenery. I realized, at the same time, that I was lying down in my bed. I was walking in this lush green field, when suddenly white fluid light started moving in my spine with such a roar that it through me off balance. At this point, I didn’t know if I was asleep or awake. It all seemed so real. The roar was so loud that if I had heard that roar with my physical ears I would have been deafened, and the light was so bright that if I had seen it with my physical eyes I would have been blinded. But, in my mind’s eye and ear, this light was very blissful, the roar enjoyable. This light came up almost to the point of my solar plexus, when I felt a slight fear. But, something or someone inside told me to not be afraid. The voice said, “Remember, this is the same as what happened to you during your meditation. You were afraid then, but no need to be afraid now. Just surrender.” (See my June 11, 2004 entry, “Is This Kundalini?”) With that I said, “I surrender.” I clearly remember adjusting myself in my bed, so my spine was straight, and at the same time I sat on a bench in the green field in my dream (vision) and just surrendered to the experience. With that the liquid light went through my spine uninhibited with such a roar, I cannot put the experience in words. It went up and up quickly and entered the lower part of my brain and then suddenly shot up. At this point my body sitting on the bench, in my dream, just exploded into pieces each piece becoming pure light. At the same time I lost sense of my physical body lying in bed. It is now all light, pure light of millions of suns shining white and bright. It is so blissful. This is when I experienced, “I am light. I am bliss.” I don’t know how long it lasted—may be a few seconds or minutes. I found myself partially awake with a big smile on my face. The light had disappeared. In a few seconds after that I fell into deep sleep.
I don’t know if this really happened. Even if it happened only in the dream, still I cannot forget this experience.
After yesterday’s experience, I find there is a constant flow up my spine, kind of a tickle. As I am writing this, the crawling sensation in my brain is increasing and making me close my eyes. It is giving me a kind of joy I can’t describe.
It is still taking me time to assimilate this experience into my life.
My Interpretation Of These Experiences After Three Years
As I mentioned at the beginning of this article, these experiences occurred three (3) years ago and my current realizations are much different from then. My current realization is that there is nothing outside of me. Everything is in me and I am in everything. Under this realization, I interpret this experience as,
A massive portion of my brain suddenly became active and let the higher vibratory consciousness of myself to well up. My brain perceived those higher frequencies as brilliant three dimensional geometric patterns, pure brilliant light and roaring sound of a waterfall. Constant flow of blissful sensations in my spine and sensitivity to energy are an indication that a part of those neurons that became suddenly active remained active, and subsidence of the brilliant light and reduction in the intensity of the sound are an indication that the remaining portions of those neurons, that suddenly became active, became dormant again.